INTIMADATION

I've just left the last meeting of the Women's Lacrosse team before the 2007 season begins. A lot of my teammates walked out of the meeting feeling excited and pumped up.....sadly, or maybe not so, i left feeling questionable and confused. Our coach hyped us all up with one of his famous speeches about the blood, sweat, and tears, we were about to pour into our new season. He planted dreams of reaching the national tournament in our heads to try and make each of us inspired to put everything and more into our season. He informed us of our 2 a day practice and 6:oo a.m. wake-up calls and 7 mile runs. As the meeting unfolded he told us of our 10 page team rules and guidlines and let us know how much of our lives were about to be devoted to a single sport and a single team. The thing is i have no problem being a team player. I didn;t start and continue playing sports purley for love of the game, i've always been about love of my team. The reason i kill myself season after season, sprint after sprint is not for the sport...NO! it's for my team so i can leave each practice and game knowing i went out and put it all on the line.
The thing about this season is that our team hasn;t meshed yet....and maybe we won't. For the first time in more sports history i'm unsure of a team i'm a part of. Maybe that's the bigger issue, i don't feel like a part of the team, i don't think anyone does.
Whatever the case may be the thing is that i'm really not sure if i can do lacrosse this season. My motivation is slipping, and for once, Coach Juicy Jack's speeches aren't lighting the fire inside.